Hey, it's been a long time since I have written anything.  Spring break has been so great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I have been talking to this guy for sometime and now we have really hit it off.  We really care about each other.  I have never in my life been blessed with somebody that has cared about me so much.  Things are really going to last between us.  He is so loving not to mention caring.  I love him so much it hurts sometimes.  He is hot niceness too.  He is nothing at all like Brandon.  I can't wait to go back to school and tell Anna of all my adventures with Dan.  DAN IS THE MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jess 

I can't believe this!  Life is GREAT!!!!!!!  Things are going exactly the way I want!!  I have focused a lot of my attention on school so now I'm passing ALL my classes.  That is a first for me.  Photography has really taken off for me this year.  I LOVE IT!!!!  I know what I'm going to do for my future.  That is what I was really stressin' over.  Now I just have to put my plans into action.  That will be another really big step for me.  Thank you Lord so much for helping me get through my tough times.  Of course it's not over but I really feel like I have meaning to my life.  I know what I want to do I just need help to do it.  Help me to stand up to my fears and achieve my goals.  I have shown myself that I can do anything I want to do.  Just help me to keep going and not lose the ambition!  I love you God.  I thank you so much.

Jess

Well, things turned to shit.  I don't know what to do.  I mean I do know but I don't want to do anything.  I'm just letting things sit and maybe that's best but things are going nowhere!  I'm tired all the time and things are just getting worse in my life.  Of course the obvious, friends, school, work...when will I be happy in my life?  When I find something that works everything goes to pot.  I need to keep things the way they are right now so I can get myself back on my feet.  I need to start caring.  Put other peoples feelings and wants ahead of mine.  I want to be a good person.  Sometimes it's just so hard.  Jasmine said it best when..."Sometimes the happiest people are really the saddest."  That is so true!  I put on a front at school but really I just want to burst out in tears.  I hate this but this is what has to happen.  I just want to say "hello" but I can't bring myself to do it.  I think your happy with the way things are now.  I want to be your friend again.  I really miss you.  I wonder if you feel the same about me?  I'm still hurting.  I hate to see your face everyday just to know that you hate me.  I don't hate you.  I was just mad.  I'm not mad anymore.  I'm just hurt that I lost a great friend.

Jess 

Boy oh boy.  Today is going to be a good day.  I know it's only 7:03 in the morning but I can tell.  Not really sure what I'm going to do yet though.  I was wanting to get my haircut this weekend but I never found the time.  Maybe I'll do it next weekend or on a day I don't work.  SNOW DAYS ARE AWESOME!!!!  Oh but I hate taking 2 hours to dig my car out of the snow.  That sucked....

Jess BEE

this still fuckin sucks

jess bee